scare..

my life is still the same, nothing has change. one thing i have realise is i am not a good boy friend. haiz.. my job as a boy friend is to make my girl friend happy but for the past few months, i keep make her angry and emo.. i dunno what should i do to maintain this relationship and keep u happy always. i am scare i will lose you. maybe sometimes i am childish and sohai, i am just trying to make u smile more.. hope i can be more mature...i want to take good care of u and hope we can last forever.. i want u to believe the words forever.. love u
for the past few months, my relationship with my friends getting better. we dint really quarrel. haha.. i really appreciate u all. kelvin, tommy, panda, miwi, soo ping, chuan how,kah chuan and siew fei. u all my brothers.. thx for ur help when i need u all...
lol, i will never forget gavin.. u will always be my sifu.... fuck u cause u are in Sunderland now..hope u will come back again.. miss u my brother..

back to my happy life

nowadays my life is full of happiness. thx to sakana and my friends. thank god this few days dint really quarrel with her. for the past few weeks, i kept on quarrel with her. haiz.. maybe i am not a good boy friend. everything that i have did also will make her angry. maybe is because i am not caring enough. sorry.. i used to promise u that i will make u happy but i cant fulfill my promise. sorry. i will improve and try to be a better boy friend. last week, my face was badly hurt by the sun burn and luckily my gf take good care of me. hehe. the best thing was she dint even leave me because that time i was really fucking yong sui. haha.
few days ago, Gavin said he will be back and i cant wait to see him. miss that fucker.. i can never forget who is my sifu.. haha
lastly, i hope i can be a good bf. the gf that i am having now is the best gf that i ever had. she always make me happy and smile. when i am sad or down, she is the one that be with me and make me smile. haha but my brothers like kelvin and tommy also got help me geh. haha. i cant promise that i can be with you forever but all i know is i love deeply and i hope i can be the one that is sleeping beside you until old and take care of you when you are old.. love you sakana

Miss you

for the past two days i feel uncomfortable because you are not beside me. i feel like something is missing. sometimes i wish i can be with you everyday but i scare you will feel bored of me. yesterday you treat me so cold. you seldom reply my msg and i was so scare. my heart beeps very fast cause i am nervous. i am scare that you feel bored of me. luckily today you got reply me and chat me like normal. you are coming back tomorrow. cant wait for it.. miss you

Just the same

my life is back to normal. Everyday also doing the same thing. The only thing that i am trying to improve is i am tryin to be a good friend and boy friend. recently, i have hurt few of my friends and also my girl friend. sorry. i will try to improve. maybe one day i will manage to change.. give me some time..
life in kampar is kinda boring. luckily i manage to find something to do. that is watch doraemon. haha. i know it sounds lame but what to do. kampar is a dead town. luckily i have my girl friend and a group of friends that always support me.

I am sorry.

Once again I have hurt your feelings. Sorry. I am just trying to be as caring as I can but I dun know it will hurt your feelings. You have ignored me for few hours but for me it is very long already. The time pass very slow and I seems so lonely without you. I have friends beside me but I just feel like I have lost something very important. I can feel that my soul has lost and I hope you will forgive me soon. It is so hard for us to be together and I hope it won’t end just like that. Once again, I am sorry for what I have done.

My bad day

What a bad day. Today I was late for my exam and the fucking paper was so hard. Japanese was the only subject can make me stress like fuck. Damn. During the exam, I went to toilet and it ended up like shit. The floor was so slippery and I just slipped. I realize my body was wet because I felt on to the water and it hurt my backs. It was so embarrassing. Hope my back will recover soon. One thing I am happy is I realize that most of my friends in Kampar really treat me like a friend. Feel very touched when my girl friend and my roommate accompany me to see the doctor. Thanks. I will never forget for those who have helped me today.

my true feelings

This few weeks, i have made few of my friends emo.. I admit i have made a lot of empty promises. I will try to change.. Today I just received a call from my best friend and ended up I have been screwed again. This proves that I am not a really good friend. I might have a lot of friends but I have hurt most of them. Most of the time I will break my promise and one of it is cigarette. I can’t get rid of it. Erm.. Maybe I should learn how to be nice to my friends. Sorry if I have hurt anyone. Hope everyone can forgive me.

Gav, you are leaving soon. You are my really best friends. We seldom keep in touch but you will always be my brother. The times we had will always be in my memories. I will never forget how you help me and you always give me advice when I am having problem. Hope our friendship will never end when you leave Malaysia.