What should i do??????

Haiz , I just read her blog. She said she dun need me to pity her... Haiz. I helped her is because i want to be with her not because of PITY. She really thing that i have already gave up. Actually i am not. I hope one day, she will feel touch and she can consider about me again but i know this will never happen. When she is crying, i want to borrow her my shoulder but i dun dare to ask. I know i have hurt her feelings. Everything also cant change already. It is damn sad when u see the girl u love crying but u cant do anthing, i cant even borrow her my shoulder. All i can do is to stand behind her and keep askin weather is she ok or not. I feel down. No one will understand how i feel. To be honest, I also dun really understand . When she going to accept me, why i go step back?????? Am i stupid???? Gavin.... if u are here, I know u can teach me what to do... but i know u wun be here now.