Just the same as yesterday

I am back. Haiz.. Today, i am so tired. Now is 4am in the morning and i haven sleep. Lol. Parents not here so no curfew. Haha. lets start with my dancing practice.Today, my dream come true. Haha. I get to dance with my CHT 2 dream girl ( Queenie). HAHA.She is so pretty. I have been lookin at her for one year and finally I get to hold her hands. Lol it is so fun and nice. I also get to dance with my partner again. Lol her name is Fish. Haha. She is so cute and the best thing is she is shorter than me. Lol. If she wear high heels during the penang trip, she will be as tall as me. Haiz, why am i so short???? I really enjoy dancing with her but I feel down when i see 15. She look so down but i dun dare to talk to her. I can see that no one is dancing with her but i dint go find her because I need to forget her and treat her like my best friend or maybe sister. I realise after i told her my feelings, our friendship has face alot of problem. Everyday, either one of us will feel down or emo. I cant understand her feelings and she also cant understand mine. This make me feel that we are from the different world. I need to forget all my feelings and treat her like a friend. I hope she can live happily like last time. Just finish reading her blog. Feel so down when she wrote about her mum called her. I really hope i can teman her but i cant. I need to stop thinking of her. I hope our friendship can be like last time. I realise nowadays, I seldom talk to her already. Maybe is because of what i did last time. Hope everything also will be ok and she can live happily like last time.